HI Rian_bruz,

I study hard everyday but I can’t speak English well. I study lots and lots of grammar rules but I can’t memorize them.

My question is “Do you practice them, the rules, every day too?”

I wish to speak  English with correct grammar without studying grammar rules because I study it by myself and nobody teaches me.

Studying  is not a must in order for you to know about a particular thing, However, no one will know about a particular thing without learning it. A young bird doesn’t study how to fly, a baby doesn’t study how to say “mama” at the first place, and so on. A young bird, however, learns how to fly from watching its mother’s flapping her wings and then by practicing what it sees. A baby learns how to speak at the first place by listening to his or her mother’s voice, by watching his or her mother’s mouth movement, by storing, copying and repeating what the baby perceives. At first, the young bird’s wings may be too weak to fly, and the baby’s utterance fails to be understood, but with the power of a regular practice, either the young bird or the baby eventually succeeds. 

It’s hard for me to make sentences while speaking. I think about grammar rules first, so I speak/write very slowly.

This is true for any of us. But, thinking is no longer needed once English patterns or expressions are well stored in our brain. How to achieve this? I would say by following what the young bird or the baby does.

From where do I start learning?

I don’t know how to answer this because everybody has his or her own style of learning, because everybody has his or her own characteristics, habits, needs, etc. However, you may start by practicing most commonly used expressions, for instance, those you usually use in Indonesian while you’re talking with your friends, and of course, in their English version. 

All of your posts are very useful……